Tuesday, April 29, 2008'♥
HOHOHO!
CLICK5 Badge! Fan of them? Tell me and I'll get it for you FREE! YES, you heard me. FREE.
okla, badge only. No BIG DEAL. lol. But seriously, if anyone of you wants it, just tell me. Keep for fun also can! (:
Im working for Singtel, giving out Click5 Badges last sat and this coming sat. This explains why I've got them. Yet again, easy job and easy money. High pay too!
I need money. Yes, you. Spare me some, will you? HAHHAHAHA. craps.
And like finally, tml and thurs don't need go school. SHIOK. i feel like a piggggg. heeheee. :D
❤ 11:50 PM
Monday, April 28, 2008'♥
Hello.
Enough of those emo days. (: Thanks everybody, who've been there for me. you guys know who you are. <3!
First of all, I know you guys miss my face right. HAHAHA. and I realised I seldom take pictures alr. know why? cos i think i getting uglier leh! HOW?
And wow, 3 weeks have past since he left for Taiwan. Coming back next tues, which is also my birthday. I can't wait to go airport and fetch him. Sadly, can't celebrate my official 18th birthday with him cos his flight arrived 12.40am. SIGHS.
Ytd went out to Marina Square with my dear mum. You guys must be thinking im such a filial daughter right. HAHAHA. But well, wrong guess. I went out with her cos I need her to buy me stuffs! BAD RIGHT? like obviously. uhuh. she knows it too. :D:D
This's taken outside my house. lmao.
Wanted to buy shoes. and yes, I know what im going to get already. Im just waiting for the Great Singapore Sales. Yeah man. Charles & Keith YO!
Bought 2 spag tops at Cotton On again. cos it's fucking cheap. yes, 5bucks. why not? HAHHAA. and it's my style. Fyi, im always seen wearing tank tops, spags or tubes with shorts or mini skirts. NO LIFE hur? But seriously, i see no point in wearing dresses to school! cos it aint no Fashion Show. LOL. so, yeahs, get my point right? But but, i saw this black beaded babydoll in Cotton On! omgzxzx. I LIKE~~~
Dinner at Secret recipe again. :D:D
Den home sweet home! SWEEE~~
Monday's Blue. Monday's lessons are always boring. But one good point, can be quite slack eh. HAHA.
AND YES, 3 DAYS OF SCH FOR THIS WEEK ONLY. :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
PP's due on 6May. (my birthday somemore). *hint hint* HAHAHHA. zzz. KNN. cannot let me celebrate in peace meh. WALAO. someone help me please. ):
im missing you, like always.
❤ 8:28 PM
Sunday, April 20, 2008'♥
I Feel So Hated.
I Feel Mistaken.
I Want Life To Move On.
Trapped In An Endless Twilight.
I Feel Disregarded.
I Feel Hurt.
I Want To Be Loved.
I Want To Be Needed.
Forgotten And Empty.
I Want Solitude.
I Want Companionship.
But Nobody Can Ever Know.
I Feel Weak.
I Feel Defenceless.
I Can Never Show My Feelings.
Have To Live In The Shadows.
I Feel Dark.
I Feel Misguided.
I Want Redemption.
I Want A Promise.
Will Nobody Help Me?
I Feel Cursed.
I Feel Pathetic.
I Want To Pretend.
I Want To Live.
But I'm So Broken Down.
I Feel Lust,
I Feel Rage.
I Want A Reason.
I Want Somebody Near Me.
For Tommorrow Will Never Come.
I Feel Trapped.
I Feel Old.
I Want Help.
I Don't Want To Say.
Because It Makes Me Weak.
I Feel Nothing.
I Feel Missing.
I Want To Be Embraced.
I Want Somebody To Tell Me It's Alright.
But The Comforter Cannot Be Comforted.
I Feel Cold.
I Feel Prevented.
I Want Love.
I Want To Feel Remembered.
Nothing Will Ever Happen.
2 more weeks down, & 2 more weeks left.
Waiting for your return.......
❤ 8:44 PM
Wednesday, April 16, 2008'♥
Sorry for the previous 2 posts. I cant help it, was feeling way too sad. )))): Till now, things had gone such a way that I think there's no TURNING BACK. 2 words from him : FUCK OFF. Well, obviously it hurts alot when I saw it. I HATE PEOPLE WHO ASKED ME TO FUCK OFF. But seriously, does he have to say things in such a manner?? Still, I do love him. I mean I cant possibly so fast dun love him already right. SIGHS.
Learnt a few things in this r/s. I thought being honest in your past with your bf would be a good thing. But it turns out opposite. And so, NEVER EVER let them know your past.
Anyway, enough of that emo shit.
Slacked with Raphael, Haisheng and Bingjie after school. TOTALLY WORTH IT MAN. I tell you, seriously, BINGJIE WAS THE JOKER OF THE DAY. Laughed like hell. Took a few videos, waiting for that stupid Raphael to send me then I upload for you guys to see. SUPER HILARIOUS I SWEAR. LOLOLOLOLOLOL!
Hanging out with J.E.R.K or rather my MacFamily really make my day, though sometimes they bully me, treat me like shit. Still, I love them alot. <33!
And oh, last sat and sun, I was working. Giving out flyers for Singtel at Jp. ROCKS MAN. Easy job and good pay. heehee. Waiting for my pay now. :D:D
Thanks to all those who tagged me. Really appreciate it alot. LOVE YOU GUYS MANY MANY. & keep the tags going! (:
❤ 12:22 AM
Saturday, April 12, 2008'♥
IT'S SO UNFAIR.
YOU CAN GIVE UP SO EASILY.
I DUN LIKE THE WAY U DO THINGS.
I HATE YOU FOR COMING INTO MY LIFE!!!
FUCK LOVE.
IT'S HARD TO FIND SOMEONE WHOM YOU REALLY LOVE AND THAT HE REALLY LOVES YOU TOO.
all the things I've done, I still cant make u have trust in me. tell me, what more must I do?????
I pleaded and begged you, yet u showed no mercy. TELL ME, WHAT WRONG DID I DO?
Do you know, how it feels like when someone misunderstood you?
Do you know, how it feels like when someone just wont believe what you said when what you said was all the truth?
❤ 11:39 PM
Wednesday, April 9, 2008'♥
It hurts so much
to be ignored by the people
who mean the world to you.
It hurts so bad
when you feel something
the other person doesn't understand.
It hurts to know you,
even though
it's what guides me through life.
If you say you love me,
If you say you care,
If you say you won't leave me,
If we spent so much time together,
spent so much talking, learning about each other,
then why do you still say you want to leave me in the end? )))':
So many emotions inside me, yet hard to describe. Cried like hell ytdd night. Lucky don't need go sch today, eyes swollen eh. But people, im fine now. So don't worry yeahs. :D Thanks bitch, for being there for me when I needed you.
I feel so aloneeeeee.... God, tell me. What did I do to deserve all these? Once close frens werent close to me anymore, once loved me so much yet want to leave me...
❤ 3:44 PM
Saturday, April 5, 2008'♥
Hello.
Sorry for lack of updates. Well, I guess not much people read my blog either. :/
HAHHAHAHAHHAA.
Yes, he's going taiwan tonight. I so dun wish to see him go. ONE FREAKING MONTH CAN! arghhh.
Stayed over at his hse ytd night, this morning went home first and waited for him. Said could come meet up for one last time before he leave. I waited and waited and waited..... msged him a few times but no reply. Can you imagine from early afternoon till night, NO REPLIES.
I felt so sad suddenly, and I started to cry while lying on my bed.
I don't really know why I cried either. Perhaps, Im disappointed and sad that he didn't come. Afterall, he did reply once saying he was out with his sergent. Well, I know I couldn't blame him. He was busy preparing for the taiwan trip. But at least, he could reply my msg!!!!!!!! ))))))):
Imagine im the one not replying him, he sure say I with other guys. HAIS.
Forget it, shan say anymore. NO MOOD.
Plus sch's starting this monday. FUCKFUCKFUCK. Hope there's disaster and then I won't be able to go school.
On a happier note, he's coming back on my birthday! 6MAY! :D:D:D AHAHAHA.
Can someone get me my Burberry Bag? oops. :x I would thank you many many.
http://www.burberryusaonline.com/product/index.jsp?productId=2536043&cp=2119866.1914960&view=all&parentPage=family
This is the bag I want! OMGOMG.
When you're gone,
I'll miss you badly.
I miss your smell,
I miss your face,
I miss your hug,
I miss your kiss,
I miss your hand,
I miss your everything.
❤ 10:35 PM
