Monday, July 28, 2008'♥
And yes, he came and looked me up on that friday night.
All was well but then ytdd night, he told me he don't feel like being with me.
I don't know why, but im feeling confused. im lost.
Part of me wanted to let go, part of me wanted to hold on.
What should I do? )):
I wanted to let go because,
he scolds me for almost everything I said,
he scolds me if I whine to him,
he don't trust me,
he's always giving me attitude,
he's always want things to go his way,
he never listens,
he's petty.......
how does it feel like when you're scolded almost everytime by what u said?
Each time he scolds me, I just feel sad.
& His scoldings are starting to make me fear talking to him.
cos im afraid he might be angry with me again.
But I really feel i've said nth wrong.
Sometimes, I merely just asked a few more questions and he scold me back alr.
SIGHS.
Perhaps he's starting to get sick of me.
But cant blame him la, cos I'll feel irritated when my mum asks me alot of questions.
But still, it sucks alot to be scolded by him. )):
Still hesitating whether I should msg him. cos.................................
❤ 9:35 AM
Friday, July 25, 2008'♥
Is this your way of ending our relationship?
From ytdd night onwards, I didn't get a reply from you anymore.
Tried calling you, but you never pick up.....
The phone just continue to ring...
Each time I called, all I ever hope was that you would pick up and I could hear you at the other end.
But each time, it gave me disappointment.
All I heard was " The M1 customer you're calling is not responding............ "
As much as I love you, as much as I don't wish to break up, but still, you cruelly left me just like that.
Is this God's way of punishing me, for the wrongs that I've done in the past. All I ever asked was to be with you, all I ever asked was, is a perfect love.
But nth is perfect, afterall.
From this relationship, I learnt that if a person don't trust you at all, no matter what you do, how hard you try, the person will still not believe in you. It just makes me wonder, then why am I changing so hard for? For fun? For play? Definitely not.
I did all these because of one thing, and that's I LOVE YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART.
I just felt discouraged, after changing so much for you and yet you didn't "see" it.
Why do I always have all these shit happening to me? One after another. Im really tired, really very tired. Im tired of putting up a strong front in front of everyone. I just feel like crying. I really wish to just forget everything but I can't. Memories are already etched deeply inside my heart.
I know you wouldn't be reading this, but if one day you might happen to read it, I'll still be here. Always.
Life has to move on, that's what everyone telling me. But how could I move on? I really don't know how. SIGH. Im taking a step slowly and slowly now. )):
❤ 4:48 PM
Friday, July 11, 2008'♥
HELLOHELLO.
anyone looking for weekend part-time job? please tell me! But must able to commit for 6months.
work as a service provider at west area. (redhill/dover that side)
pay is $7-$9 per hour. depends. but must undergo interview first. (:
ok, back to topic.
4days of no contact with him. SIGHS. i don't even know what to do. but i've sent an email to him. HOPEFULLY he checks his mail and reads it. )):
anyway, my life's getting more and more boringgggg.
it's just sch and sch and sch and sch. if not, got event jiu event, event, event. (work)
so of cos, you don't see me updating as often. cos i've nth to blog about!
but still, don't stop visiting my blog okayyy!
hahahaa. cos there's an advert coming up on the 13th!
do click on them! :D:D
thanks!
have a smashing weekend guys! XOXO.
❤ 9:32 PM
Sunday, July 6, 2008'♥
Ytdd evening went over to my relative's house for a small gathering.
Actually it was her baby's one month old celebration. So ya..
Ate and slacked around, watched dvd, played with baby, some catching up with cousins.
And her baby was soooooo small la. so tiny and cute. the hands, the legs, super mini size can!
ohhhhhhh.. I LOVE BABIES!!!! :D:D
Can see her hand as compared to our hand? LOL.
Mum and me. (:
❤ 2:56 PM
Friday, July 4, 2008'♥
It's time I should really let go............ ))':
u gave me no choice.
my heart's aching, and it's bleeding inside....
❤ 11:08 PM
